To exist is to change; to change is to mature; to mature is to create oneself endlessly.

They say there are three grand essentials to happiness in this life they are: something to do, something to love and something to hope for. I'm lucky enough to say I either have that or it is possible for me to have.

These past few days have been quite good for me, I can say that i'm happy, i'm content, i'm finally accepting myself. If you said that to me a week or so ago i wouldn't believe you, but i'm glad I feel alot better.

I thought to myself life is way too short to be upset, just because i'm not with Matthew now doesn't mean I will never see him ever again, I should make it something to look forward to, which is one step closer to happiness in life.

I don't know if it's the sleep or something else but I realised i'm really lucky, I have someone who loves me and puts up with anything, a family who cares about me and friends who would do anything for me.

I may not feel like I fit in sometimes but that's their problem for not wanting to know me and I really shouldn't let it bother me that much.

Reader, Why did it take me this long to realise this?

I've wasted way too much time worrying what people think and getting upset about it.

Now, i'm only looking after number one and those close to me.

I'm glad I realised this, it's better late than never.