“You know it's a bad day when you put your bra on backwards and it fits better.”

come on fingers type, let your feelings lay bare for the world to see

oh reader, you know those days you just have too much emotion and you just can't contain it any more?

Well today is one of those days for me and god I hate them!

Just when I thought I was getting over things, getting better and people maybe are just starting to understand me again I realise I wasn't. It was just what I wanted, I wanted it so much that actually when I see the reality that actually nothing has changed at all. It's like I took 3 steps forward and 2 steps back all in the space of one day.

Don't get me wrong I have friends and they mean the world to me, but I just wish that I had the confidence to fit in more with them and their other friends. I've tried and I thought i was succeeding, well I was but I sometimes feel like they won't even notice I'm gone. That I will be the girl they'll be like "oh do you remember that red headed girl...what was her name again?" that will be me.

Maybe I should just accept that I just wont ever fit in.

On top of all that I feel the worse girlfriend in the world, when I should really be with my boyfriend I am hundreds, thousands of miles away ¬_¬

What use is that?

How can I be a proper girlfriend if I'm not there when he really needs me?

I think all I need is a long cuddle, I feel really lonely.

I'm missing my boyfriend so so so much! and I'm finally coming to terms that I wont see him for another 6 months, after not seeing him for 3 months already and it's beginning to effect me emotionally.

Ah maybe I'm just being an emo, reader.

But I feel like no one will listen to me who actually gives a fuck, including you I bet.

I'm going to sleep on it I guess reader, maybe it's the lack of sleep and worry of last night that has taken it's toll on me.

To end on a good note, I must say that Bayonetta looks like a sick game and I shall be investing in a copy soon.